...the presence of God was heavy.

by: Anonymous

I attended the Miracle conference last year in St. Johns, NL. I traveled 8 hours across the island to be there. For weeks I was so excited about spending a weekend in fellowship and worshiping the Lord. I knew the Lord wanted to do something but I had no idea what I was in for. From the moment the first meeting began the presence of God was heavy. Every song, every word made me come undone. The second day as we were worshiping I felt a spirit of repentence come upon me. I began to wail uncontrollably. When Rabbi Gennady started his message I thought I would stop, but I could not. All I could do was weep and wail. I felt that this repentence in my spirit was not just for my own self and my own need to be laid down more but also for the western church. I kept seeing images of those in the western church who were not led by the spirit and who have been full of their own arrogance. I felt a desperate need to humble myself in repentance both for myself and for the western bride. The next evening of worship was no less powerful. I began just entering into worship. I was not looking for anything for myself I simply just wanted to worship the Lord. That was my only purpose. However I had been having some health problems and for a week my throat and my glands were swollen and eating and swallowing food was becoming increasing difficult. Rabbi Gennady stood up and said that there was someone in the room who was having problems with their throat and it was hard to swallow. Immediately I felt the presence of God envelope me like a cloud all around me, in every fibre of my being, and I thought for sure that I was going to fall under the heavy weight of it. I knew it was for me and that in that instant I was being healed. Shortly after, Rabbi Gennady called an alter call. I stood there with everyone else as he one by one prayed for each individual. I was trying to remain standing but the presence of the Lord was so powerful. Rabbi Gennady never actually got to me, but only passed by me and Instantly I fell to the ground in the Spirit. The manifested presence of God was so powerful that I was unable to move and I was filled with the most incredible sense of freedom and joy. I have experienced this before but never to this degree. I tried sitting up many times but as soon as I did Rabbi Gennady would pass by and I would fall back again like a lifeless weight. I laid slain in the Spirit for hours even into the end of the service. The service was over and although I could hear around me people leaving and packing up, I was still unable to move. Finally after some time someone came to help me. I could not walk without someones help. I was completely drunk in the Spirit. My legs were like rubber and would not hold me. We made it to the lobby with someone holding me up and I collapsed in the chair. I didn't have a care in the world and other then someone telling me that they had to get me home, I didn't really care at that moment whether I went home or stayed in the chair, I was caught up in God's glory. After Rabbi Gennady left the building I was able to finally move a bit more and eventually stand and walk, though still with difficulty and needing much concentration. I finally made it to the house where I was staying but was still quite drunk. When I went to bed that night the weighty presence of God remained and kept me awake. It was so heavy and it felt like electricity going through every fiber of me. There was a reverence that came with it, a knowing that I was in the presence of Holiness. There was so much of it that I asked God to take some of it, not all of it but some of it, because I felt like I couldn't handle much that much of His presence. When I woke the next morning I was still in a wonderful place in the Spirit and I noticed that my throat was completely healed. Although I was glad that the Lord had healed me, I was more excited about how His presence had been poured out and it only made me hungry for more and more of Him. I will never forget that meeting. It will be forever engraved in my heart. I know that it changed me even if I can't pinpoint exactly how. If anything it made me hungrier than I already was before that and caused me to seek the Lord's face more diligently. I am now like a seeker who can not give up the pursuit. I have to have more of Him. I must have more of Him. God has been purging so much out of me since that meeting and I hear His voice clearer than I ever have. I continue to spend my days in worship, spending as much of my time worshiping Him as I possibly can and sometimes wishing that I was able to worship the Lord and never do anything else. Of course we know that we can't do that when there is a whole world needing us to bring to them His glory and presence. I bless Rabbi Gennady and the whole ministry team. My heart is blessed by your devotion and obedience to the Lord. I pray that God will pour His presence out onto me and all of us the way He has with Rabbi Gennady so that we can be the glorious church that we are called to be and bring His glory into this dying and broken world.

2010-08-02